There’s no other way of saying it: the year 2017 was shit. But it’s time to leave it all behind me and focus on the future. So let’s see what this new year has in store for me in my personal outlook for 2018.
I’m typically not one to dwell in the past. What happened, has happened. There’s no changing it, so why keep worrying about it all, right? Nonetheless, a quick reflection on what was, can sometimes help you to get back on track. And that’s something I need, as 2017 nearly brought me to a breaking point.
Professionally, I got on the verge of a burnout, having lost my temper on a particularly annoying day. It truly was a signal that my life urgently needed to change. Typically functioning on auto-pilot, I lost all motivation as well as my patience with people. Ultimately, the stress of continuously being surrounded by stupidity, the increasingly high workload, and the long commute each day was getting to me. I lost my drive and passion. Luckily I was able to get some time off and put some things into perspective. And believe me, that breathing period came just in time.
But that was not the worst part of the year. Sadly, 2017 was a year of great personal loss to me. A year full of death and mourning. In the span of 2 months, both my remaining grandmothers passed away.
My maternal grandmother got pancreatic cancer in late 2016 and passed away less then a year later. It was incredibly hard to see her suffer and whither away. Words can barely describe the helplessness you feel when you see someone you love in such pain and agony. Especially when it’s someone who still had some much life in her. I miss her dearly – especially now and in coming months. Her death has hit our family very hard.
My step-grandmother then suddenly died a couple of weeks later as well, at 95 years old. She was just days away from her 96th birthday. Although it was sad to see her go, it was a relief that she no longer had to suffer either. After all, her high age caused her a lot of ailments which destroyed all quality of life. I helped to take care of her as best as I could in her last months, but in the end she went peacefully in her sleep. She had a good life, and will be missed as well.
Outlook for 2018
After such an insufferable year, 2018 just had to bring positive news. Luckily, this year seems to be on the right track, with a couple of exciting events ahead. Rest assured, 2018 is going to be my year of change!
For starters, my girlfriend and myself finally moved into a newly constructed apartment that we bought. Finally a home to truly call our own, instead of paying someone else money to sleep and live in their property. We still have a lot of work to do: painting, new furniture to assemble, etc. But once complete, we’ll have a modern, minimalist-but-still-luxury apartment that will be a home to our family for decades to come.
The downside? The massive debt my girlfriend and I got ourselves into. Bloody hell, I never thought I would pay so much money for a home. The sooner we get it paid off, the better!
But that’s certainly not the most important event this year. On the contrary.
I’m going to be a father! At the end of July, my girlfriend will give birth to our daughter. Still baffled, to be honest. I have no idea what to expect and how to prepare for this. For a long time, having children never even crossed my mind. It was not a necessity – let alone a priority – in my life at all. But my girlfriend eventually persuaded me, and now I couldn’t be more excited!
I can’t wait to meet my child. She’ll be my catalyst for change. No more excuses; my daughter deserves the best father. And to be the best father, I need to become the best man I can be – both mentally and physically! So that’s my most important outlook for 2018: I will take my transformation seriously, I will stop slacking around, and I will do what is required to change into a better version of myself.
A New Professional Challenge
Baby? Check. A new home? Check. So why not make some changes in my career too? Well, that’s exactly what I’ve done. After all, my burnout in 2017 indicated that it was time for me to move on. My high workload, lost motivation, and hectic schedule was really wearing me down.
After a discussion with my bosses, we came to an agreement. As of July, I will become one of my company’s primary instructors in my field of expertise. In other words, I will train the new generations of my colleagues!
The benefits? For starters, I’ll be working closer to my home, and thus save time on my daily commute. It also means I won’t have to leave my home so early and will return home at a more reasonable hour – which means more free time to spend with my daughter!
Secondly, I will have a fixed course schedule each year. Which means I’ll be free from last minute surprises, interfering business trips, and stress. I’ll finally be able to implement positive habits and set a good routine in my life. I am so looking forward to the calmer and more conscious lifestyle this new job can bring. It will allow me to focus on the more important things – my mental and physical development and my family.
So much for my outlook for 2018! What’s in store for you? Feel free to let me know in the comments below. Also, if you want to learn more about me, check out my About Me page.
n unrelated side note: the beautiful background photo in this article’s header was made by Jeremy Cai. You can find his work – and other free-to-use quality photos – on Unsplash. It’s a great resource for bloggers.
As always, take care of yourself and until next time.